wee!!! its finally december. after 5 long years, christmas is now in the air. waw. perhaps losing our flight was a terrible thing yet i believe some other people deserves to have that more than we do.

it's haj time kasi. so full talaga ang flights to saudi for their visit to the holy shrine of Makkah. sana yung napalit samin, yun ung reason. kung ganun, i'll be more than happy.

back to december. ansaya lng ng feeling. lamu un? kahit na sinasabi nila na ngdidiminish na ang christmas spirit, i still appreciate it. as in. haii..

my plan pala ang x-polaris na mgreunion sa enchanted sa 23. ang organizers: xempre ako at si iji. haha. sana matuloy. grabe im trying to be as thrifty as possible na[d ko na ata kaya to! haha!] just to make sure i save enough. add up the fact that i actually own a piggy bank [d xa piggy! pooh xa! haha. d ko lng alam ung term] and daily deposits to that is a must. per0 happy pa rin kasi i have a rough estimate of ***0 na! hehe. secret lng.

this 4-days long break is alright pero ano na mangyayari sa n3 lab nmin? CRAM! amf! haha. goodluck nman. kc nman why suspend yesterday's class? not even a single drop of rain i felt! xempre kagabi lng. pr0 that was around 10 past na! argh tlga! false alarm. tsktsk.


well well... till nxt tym. wala na tong kwenta. hodgepodge na namn. haha. ciao!

10:49 PM; unforgotten.Y

awww... my blog had been deserted again. how can i be so neglectful? argh. anyways, 2nd sem is incomparable to the 1st sem. for some reasons, having 2 major nursing subjects, chem lecture and lab, comm2,histo and PE, will always be the best - for a suicidal attempt. haha. just kidding.

despite the toxicity that i should be feeling now, im still delighted with the way i'm dealing with the subjects. --no afterclass gimmicks, free time spent more for studies, early sleeps, less online moments, less texts, more time for the my nephew and my nieces, and of course more time for myself.-- ^__^ another step to maturity attained.


** sorry to some. not my intention to lose touch.**

10:08 PM; unforgotten.Y

****

I've fallen in love too many times, but the thing is I can't seem to stay in love. I don't know if I'm just scared or something but after a series of broken heart, I suddenly lost faith in love. I don't wanna be someone who'll freak out on love, because deep inside I'm still the hopeless romantic girl who still believes in true love. So where the hell is my true love? Is he stuck in traffic? Or probably got lost along the way? What if something happened that he might never come at all? Silly me!!! So I arrived at the point where I stopped looking for love, I got so tired of the chase & always ending up with the wrong guy. I decided that this time, I'm giving a chance for love to find me. So did it find me? That's where my story begins... =D


****>> sleepy na. though i believe that was quite nice.haha. narcissistic(normal ah!)

6:30 PM; unforgotten.Y

waw. i can't believe my last post was like eons ago. haha. add up the fact that it's sembreak and that i had more time to surf. haha.

12 hours from now, i would be required once again to kick my ass of the bed and prepare to face my second sem at UPCN. haha. yes. it demands more guts. i should be glad though coz a month from now, it will be our christmas break. yoohoo back to riyadh once again! =D

6:22 PM; unforgotten.Y

**edited**

he's out of my life
he's out of my life
And I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
he's out of my life

It's out of my hands
It's out of my hands
To think for times that he was here
And I took him for granted
I was so cavalier

Now the way that it stands
It's out of my hands
And I've learned, love's not possession
And I've learned, love won't wait

Now I've learned that love needs expression
But I've learned too late
he's out of my life
he's out of my life
Damned indecision and cursed pride
I kept my love for him locked deep inside
And it cuts like a knife
he's out of my life

--- i just found it nice. however, i'm done ayt? happy happy. in fact, everything seems better. feel free. ^_^

2:31 PM; unforgotten.Y

hmmm... wow i'm in the mood to blog today. told you! miracles happen... even if just for once. ^_^
hearing the word miracle only puts one thing on my mind... MY LIFE with God. deep. yes. one reason why i'll always keep on believing that God is with me.
I remember not so long ago... i found myself staring blankly and deep down there, the thought of me having everything i ever wanted overshadowed the reality of being satisfied for what i call my own. I believe it is human nature yet these dreams cause us frustrations when not achieved. selfish? perchance.
dreaming is the only thing free of charge. yet it is the dedication that would lead you to attaining that. let me give myself as an example: I've always wanted to study college at the university of the philippines despite the fact that my parents offer a western education for me. the first thing in other's minds, "ridiculous". but i believe that is the best thing to do. so there... privileges restricted and more.
later on... i flew back to the Philippines and ready to enter UP. at one point in my life i was glad. glad in the sense that i know i can handle things on my own and stand by my convictions. yes dear readers. and it's God i thank for that. only HIM.

9:39 PM; unforgotten.Y

ponder~~~

11:45 PM; unforgotten.Y

different? am i?


i believe my case is not even close to being unique. i hear people talk about it oftentimes. but do you know what makes it unusual? it is me stuck to it.
**
a conversation with a friend:
lyns: (in a kidding manner) sana pala dinala ko na ren fafa ko.
friend: weh? ewan ko sayo.
lyns: d nga. seryoso.
friend: ikaw pa? of all people. haha. ikaw pa nga ung pinakakontra sa mga ganyan. tas ikaw? haha
lyns: bahala ka. isa pa pala... tagilid math ko (eto mejo totoo na!)
friend: haiinako. una boylet. ngaun babagsak? nako ha.
**

that's what i'm talking about. the friend i'm referring to is not one of those "hi-hello" friends. her words count. and i was bothered...

entering college was never easy for me. i finished high school in an international school... add up the fact that it is in saudi arabia. the upshot: socialization was at its lowest pace.
now, i have met friends who could bring me anywhere but school and home. gala wherever we can. post-exam gimmicks. all these i can do now. my tactlessness is on its nth level. i study only when i need to - in short, I CRAM. i don't blame anyone for this though coz i love what i do.

there's more to explain, more experiences that altered a bit of me...

i'm out of words. once again, i lost the determination to type! haha.

one thing i'm sure of.... i will always be "ME".



the lady in red? she'll always be that girl in blue. =D

4:45 PM; unforgotten.Y

second day of sembreak and i'm still undecided on what to do. harhar. i'd been sitting in front of this laptop for hours, fixed my room too!, yet something still needs to be done. should that be a 'GIMMICK?" haha. well.. my friends and i had been planning to go to Mall of Asia a couple of days ago yet i'm afraid i could not be with them. huhu. first... money matters kill big time! and next.. my cousin's giving birth so we have to look after the two kids - irej and isha.

hmmmm.... give me time. maybe i could do this right. ayt?? got a lot of topics in mind but iL surely find time soon!


friLL: xp0 i miz you. swear. hope we could be complete:: abs, tnx for d text! enjoy riyadh! imma tell the others too. cia0!

6:58 PM; unforgotten.Y

on iji's debut...
it was last thursday when my bestfriend iji had her pool party to celebrate her debut. it was fun. i mean it. though something is truly inexplainable... to convey it in simple terms i believe somehow Xp0 is currently having loose strings. awww... this sucks. but before that, look at the good side first. uhmmm...

meeting place: monumento. i came at around 3 PM and walked around looking for some people and ended up not finding even one so i just decided to take a sip at dunkin and wait for text messages. after a short while, i knew that some already came and that they were waiting at the station. there i found lovelle, elaine and kalvin. mind you... it was the first time i saw him again after months. then came the debutante teji. we then searched for rae who claimed he was already around. haha. now we're waiting for barbie and the boys - juti abs and rem.
** the meeting time was 3 PM and we were completed at 5 PM. amfness. haha**

next... jeepney ride to the location. soo maingay ah. mixed feelings of joy and disgust. haha. pr0 when i saw the smile on iji's face, i realized that a final exam for the next day neglected doesn't really matter to me at all. seeing her that happy was more than enough. yikee!

the next happenings were really fun.. treasures, picture moments, roses... though there was one point when i realized... the gap built over the months needs to be demolished! haha. the pool bonding was amazing. if only i could stay for another hour, i would really do so!! without hesitations. hehe.

the night ended... bie and darwin,rae, laine and i went home. the rest went their way. wherever that is... i dunno. at least our roads met even if just for hours. drama!!! nyak.


for pictures: click on the link. http://xxxlynskiexxx.blogs.friendster.com/photos/ijis_bday/

9:13 PM; unforgotten.Y

a little Sunday fun...

this day is not one of my usual sundays. why? because at days like this, you would normally see me at my tita's couch or even the dining table studying for the coming week's exams or whatsoever. However, today, i ended up just finishing the movie for our socsci final project. i had been sitting in front of this laptop for hours that i forgot to eat my lunch. i only got the chance to remember it at around 4 in the afternoon. haha.

i ate a plate of noodles and a pack of potchi gummi bears. haha.

knowing that iL be having my socio final exam on tuesday.. i didn't find time to study today. i was too preoccupied. hoping i finish my CRAMMING moments tom.

ciao.

11:12 PM; unforgotten.Y

how stupid could i be not to be able to update my blog lately? am i that busy? or is it just playing busy? and the latter wins! haha. whatever.

well.. the truth behind it.. i was just not in the mood for some blogging during the past few days but right now? something keeps blogging me back.. me back. haha. there's no reason to explain na coz i read this bloggy thing... ALONE IN THIS CYBER WORLD. weeehh. haha.

we had our math deps 3 last monday night. haha. it was such a deviant feeling to go to school at around 4 PM when everybody else goes home. haha. weird. i know i studied well for my exam... haha. feeler. well? nah.. i studied just right but waaayyy more than i used to for the 1st and 2nd deps. and i could feel the REGRET of not taking the first two deps seriously. i should've not wasted my time for nonsensical stuffs... (gee! im saying all these.. again?). there. the-same-old-lina-rendering-such-a-speech-act-again. nyahaha. well.. i left home at around three and went straight to RP to return a leather case. correct me if i'm wrong..
return/exchange of products is valid for three days. return of items maybe changed to a day. but exchange of a product for something of the same price? big deal?
and that was the problem that got into my nerves last monday. fuck them. haha. however.. I WON! haha. next stop was go nuts donuts! marrah, audz and mariane were there... and i sat for a while, ate my choc-o hazelnut donut plus a choc-o hazelnut kooler. yeah i'm stupid! it was juz that all other flavors were unavailable. amf! and a treat for the three? hehe. peace marnelle. no harm intended. haha.

and now... d deps. KILL ME! it was waaayyyyy harder than the first two. when i reached home after sitting in for a while at mcdonald's with rouchie, i left and reached home by 10 PM. a heavy feeling on my head brought me straight to bed. waahhh!!! nice one for me. T_T good luck everyone.

for three days.. no classes. but yesterday, i went to UP just to pass my ever-crammed final formal essay in COMM1.. imma post it and then react on it wokei? JPaul is such a such. haha. i mean, he's too good to be deceived. witty witty to the nth level and cutie pa. i admit i had a crush on him then. haha. and erica? are u done yet? haha.

today... we had our socsci 2nd deps. and nothin new... i crammed. haii.. i never thought i'd still be able to answer even half of that. i felt so relieved with socsci that i ended up wishing to enjoy and enjoy more....
... mariane (rather call her "emily" haha!), marnelle, claudine and i went to rob to just chill out and watch the texas chainsaw chorva... and it was a failure coz we never got to convince the guard that we're 18.. haha. do we look young? whatta compliment! haha. as if. ang haggard-looking q na tlga. eyes qu waahh sa eyebags. shrunk.
well then.. next stop n lng.. INTRAMUROS. weehhh. enjoy nman xa. i mean, it was a long-time plan of the whole circle yet we ended up four together there. hehe. love the place. cuties around sa mapua and letran. hot cars huh! haha. now lina's a lady. mind you: i didn't go there to make pa-cute noh! as if!

walk walk walk... marnelle waahhh!!! new havaianas on d filthy water with all the algae, spit, whatsoever. haha. then alcohol.. lotsa "oh my gosh's" haha. marnelle i juz love you. then walk agen.. couples walking around. some hiding behind some barriers. haha. after more walks.. we decided to ride a caritela. 150 for a tour for four juz because of the powers of emily. ahhha. iba tlga! then aun mga chorva chorva. then off to eat at a kitchenette. sarap. im gonna be back. haha.

and it's finally time to say... goodbye. i had a good time. haha. cornee!

**** done na!****

11:21 PM; unforgotten.Y

i noticed that i just can't seem to use my time productively. for what reasons? i dunno. perhaps i've always thought of having a BREAK.
an hour of study=hours of chitchat.
that's EQUILIBRIUM! haha.

however, i still wonder. these coming weeks would really be waayyyy too hard for me. finals here and there plus the fact that math 11 screws me up. i believe it's not my fault... but i still consider myself a factor. haha. keep it down low lina.. and now.. RUSH RUSH AND RUSH! it doesn't matter coz this is where the FUN is. **whisper** CRAMMING! haha.

** comm final paper.. topic? women in Islam. started? yuh.. done? nah! argh!
** socsci movie.. stuck on it! doomed.
** math review.. amf. gotta flunk... only a miracle could save me now!
** socio.. where the hell would i get the references? RECIO'S brain?
** and classes extended til the 13th. gudluck nman tlga sken neto!

one more thing.. another problem... math finals is on the 19th.. my bestfriend's debut which implies that the possibility of me being there is like on the negative scale. amfness. haii... i'm gonna miss a bunch of my friendships. no. never.

in short.... c'mon lina. that's what we call... PRESSURE.

8:00 PM; unforgotten.Y

4 days out of class because of Milenyo-striking-MM-real-bad... that was a good rest. but all those times, i was wishing for us to have classes due to the boredom that i juz couldn't stand anymore. however, i found this day really tiring. i can feel my head aching right now and instead of having a nap, i'm typing here and at the same time, giving the final touches (anu daw? ryt term?> for my term paper in anthropology. I MUST! i'd been a CERTIFIED CRAMMER for quite a while now. that sucks but somehow, i enjoy it. nyahaha. stupid me.

we only had COMM 1 today... i find my sched pretty amusing now. a single subject on mondays from 1-2:30 then home... pr0 kxe sayang pamasahe ko. huhu. pero ok lng un. haha. what else do i need to do ba? study for math. we have another exam tomorrow. welll.... i need it... BADLY. am i that poor in math now? waahhhh! how dare me not study kxe! haha. i'LL try my best na talaga. no more PROCRASTINATION! erase erase erase! haha. wateber. nyanya.

i have a big problem pala.. my final exam in comm is on the 2oth. and my bestfriend's debut is on the 19th. bestfriend? comm? waahhhhhh!!! i have to be there. she's like the bestest of all best friends i have and jenii of course. i love us. haha. I MUST BE THERE. un nga lang... no drinking. or i myt not be able to answer my exam d next day. nakakaasar tlga! magoovernyt pa nman aqu nun. hunnie iji i'm sorry... iL try to be there. **crycry**

5:41 PM; unforgotten.Y

10:36 AM; unforgotten.Y

ISLAM MISUNDERSTOOD.

http://www.candymag.com/teentalk/index.php/topic,119968.0.html

dat raged my temper. well.. how i wish everyone could juz simply UNDERSTAND!

amfness.

9:57 PM; unforgotten.Y

power trippin.

amfness kya! blackout d2 for a day... and it myt be succeeded pa. kya eto aq ngaun.. sinasamantala habang pde. haha. well.. anu ba ginawa ko khpon? eh yun. pggcng q ngttrip na ung power. so expected na. plus strong winds tlga. i even heard breaking window glasses and saw roofs flying. haha! wateber. i watched step up and d devil wears prada din pla. kc nvr got the chance to watch it until yesterday. haha. im hafee coz im onlyn na ren. haha. eun lng nman.

**you can't step on the same river twice** - a quote asked by my ahia from me. haha. for what reason? i dunno. maybe he juz felt like talking philosophically. haha. the meaning? soon.

5:23 PM; unforgotten.Y

**this one was supposed to be posted weeks ago. yet i only had time today. anyway, this is nothin but a post.. doesn't express my present feelings. wehehe.

I am numb.
I've lost all feeling.
These days fly by unnumbered
and I cry myself to sleep.

I have no thoughts or emotions,
only tears at strange moments
and occasional insatiable rage,
waiting for an excuse to be unleashed.

I go through motions familiar.
I die more and more each day.
How does one feel so empty
and so full of anger at once?

This numbness is so quickly subsided to rage
and hopeless depressi onto thoughts
I've never seriously considered before.

Thoughts of relief, an end.
bloody knives on cold linoleum
and me finally, finally relieved.

I pray to God that I stay numb
before this hopeless anger takes hold of me again.

10:18 AM; unforgotten.Y

i'm glad coz i beLieve that ryt now, i could sit back and relax not thinking about how to face that crowd for our folk dance finals. hmmm... carinosa is easy. but the fact that we have to perform in front of that bunch of people? nah. hehe. too bad.

so how did it go? ayan kwento na c aqu. gnito kc un. *rewind*...

.... i woke up at around 5:45 am coz my sister would like to take a bath first. so aun... inenjoy ko muna ang kama ko. haha. aftrwrds, i decided to take a bath na ren but i didn't get the chance to eat na. y? i'm late. haha. i left at around 6:35 when PE starts at 7 AM. haha. pity me. when i arrived... NONSENSICAL. no one around. amfness. a little practice, hairstyling (my hair waved again mariane! haha! wukie lng nman yown.), practice again, dress up... haha. i juz can't seem to imagine ourselves walking from Pedro Gil to P. Faura wearing the Filipiniana costume plus the mglalatik costume for d boys. everybody looking at us. CONGRATULATIONS FD PEOPLE.. WE ARE CERTIFIED ADD(attention deficit disorder) patients. so aun lakad lng.. tawa. nakayuko. one more advice nga pla UP students... particularly Manila ovkorz.. TRY WEARING OUR COSTUME AND D GUARDS WON'T BOTHER TO ASK FOR YOUR ID. damn it worked kanina. haha. un lang pala katapat nila. watever.

so aun... d tension strikes. but when we were there na.. it's like gone. d usual stage fright. strikes at first;gone as goes along. yah see. im hafee. yipee. PE done. =D

9:04 PM; unforgotten.Y

Lord, my deepest apologies for undertaking a new road of my life without you as my priority. for being such a neglectful child. For the wrong deeds. For the fallacious thoughts. For everything i had done. IM SORRY. Despite all this, thank you for the blessings. i strongly believe that i may turn back but You never will. now, i would just like to start and make myself believe through your help that being the only corn in this rice field... i could survive. survive my test of faith. I won't let you down. I could be the right Muslim in my mind, in my soul and in my heart. this i promise. I love you so.

yuh. that one's a diary. a diary for God. most blogs would not talk about faith but i decided to have one. i admit that i'd been a bit away from Him lately.. or perhaps farther. I swear i regret that. Why? i love Him. how? i dunno. imma Muslim. i should be abiding by the rules (right term?)... but i just can't seem to do so. Especially now that i'm trapped in a Catholic world. argh. how ironic. if only for this, i wish i could have stayed with my family back there. with them i am sure i could improve. closer. more pious. awww... pity me. it's the holy month of Ramadan. i'm still tryin to fast. tryin. i know i could. God would help me. Allah would help me.

6:39 PM; unforgotten.Y

A MESASGE FROM GOD:


"no man will ever claim you unless he claimsyou from me. For I reserved a man for you who hasmy heart and loves me even more than he will foryou. For I wont give you unless he asks you fromme......

He's asleep; don't wake him. he's busy forme, my KINGDOM. Soon you will know him, but Ihave the perfect time. You're my PRINCESS mydaughter. Let no prince claim you unless he asksyou from my hand for I am your father.... The KINGof kings. YOU, my princess are worth loving for..."

>>> very true. if u wish not to be hurt, juz wait nga naman. pr0 xperience will always guide you through. hmmm...

11:21 AM; unforgotten.Y

>>>> cutie kxe.. kapipeyst mu n lng kung gus2 mu ren. =D

10:19 PM; unforgotten.Y

y can't i just seem to post when in fact i find myself online everyday? hmm.. too bad. so this day was great and at the same time.. grrrr.... ehheheh.. first, it's because we only had N1 today then straight home. i had a good nap. wow. math exams cut down to first and second deps na lng. miracles could happen nga! hahaha!

DOLORES RECIO sucks at all times. if only i could stop her mouth from talking. i would have done it ages ago. waaahhh!!! before i even started my portion of the report, she even read what was printed on my shirt... "i enjoy my simple life... mall, shopping.." i was actually wishing for her not to react anymore and i'm glad she didn't. haiii... after all the preparations for my report, i was only able to discuss a few since she demanded for our group to end it right away. "summarize your report in two sentences! and even worse: "now, summarize it in two words!" i should've said "FUCK YOU!" now that's two words! wahahhaha!!! effort wasted. waaahhh!! but i'm relieved. no more fast heartbeats when waiting for a group to be called.

to end this.. i gotta study math. i have to pass the pre-finals. or else.. say bye-bye to me. eff!!! well then... i gotta go. goodluck lynskie.
ciao!

10:13 PM; unforgotten.Y

im soooo hapee. if only i could xplain how i feel right now, you'd be glad i feel this way. haiii.. so wat happened b kxe? we actually met again. i saw my HUNNIE IJI again. after 4 months. waahhh!!! i mizd her so much. so aun. usapan: kta tau sa kfc lrt monumento ng 2 PM. hehe. nauna xa. aun. umorder ng hotshots. hehe. then off to lrt. kulet nia. gnda tlga ng bezfrnd q. sori kau. hehe. aun. pgbaba ng central terminal.. nqta nia ung universidad de manila. tp0s aun paulit-ulit nman kinanta ung knta ng UP nung cheering. lakad kme.. lakad lng. tp0s nkrting sa dpt pntahan. SM Manila.

ngmmdali pa nman kme kc bka dumating na cla lovelle and elaine. haynako ala cla. hehe. eh d ikot muna kme. nghhnap ng bag, slippers, shirts at kung ano pa. ala nman binili. ikot lng ng ikot. alang pagod. session road around. tp0s bili kme thumbs up pla. hehe. cutie kxe. eh d mini ice cream kme. saya. tp0s nilibre nia ku sa brownies unlimited. chika kme dun. intay dating ung 2. sbi nga "ANG MGA TGA-USTE.. MGA PILIPINO TLGA." haha.

TINULUGAN KME NI LOVELLE KYA XA LATE. gnun b dpt un aber? huh??

tp0s tumawag na c elaine. asa jollibee. hehe. aun tatlo n kme. kulet na tlga ne2. chorva lng namn. eh d intay na nmin c lovelle... nung dumating xa.. tagu kme. haha. pinag3pan dw! cra. tp0s txt xa "asan kau?" ang reply "hanapin mo kme. and2 lng kme. nkikita ka nmin!" haha. san nman kau dun? tp0s nkita na ren kme. hehe.

PARE-PAREHO NGA PLANG YELLOW SUOT NMIN 3. c iji at aq eh preho pa na yellow and brown. haha. c lovelle naka-yellow din. c laine lng nka-black. hehe. gling tlga. pra kmeng cra. tp0s pnta ng kameraworld at ngpapictyur. hehe. 99 pesos at c iji xmpre matinik sa pera.. D PINALAMPAS ANG 1.75 SA 24.75. haha. gaga q tlga un.


tp0s aun. pgktp0s mgpictyur, sine na. the wicker man movie. pr0 bili muna kme kfc. tp0s aun. sa loob na.

kso d nman kme nanood. ngkwn2han at tumawa. pr0 mejo naintindhan nman ang story. hehe. kulet. tp0s dhil 7 past na, nghiwalay muna kme. me and iji tp0s lainelovs. bili kme suhol ke tta. haha kc l8 na c teji. aun.

inde b nman aq mkilala nun pg nkatalikod. kc dw str8 ang aking heyr. kmzta nman un???? hehe

ngkta na ulet at ng-LRT pauwi. sabay kme ni hun hanggang sangandaan. xmpre d q nman xa hahayaan mglakd mag-isa along monumento. never. lab q un eh. hehe.


**i mizd d days. pr0 lam niu bng kme p ren 2? kme p ren. kya hapi aq. sobra. sana nxt tym mdmi na tau. kumpleto na. **

11:23 PM; unforgotten.Y

awww... kklungkot man icpin pr0 dats prt of reality db? u can never be wid d people whom u wish to stay til u want to. the only thing wrong about it...why too soon? nothing i can do but lift it all up to Him. let Him take care of everything. in time. maybe juz in time but i ain't hoping. perhaps im happier in some ways. sublimation. ingat n lng lge. godblez u 2.

11:16 PM; unforgotten.Y

You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next year,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.


So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.

No matter how often you talk, or how close you are, Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this text and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and always will…..

**kau ah! wag niu subukan gwin. upakan q kau mga friends q. xmpre one down na. awww.. too bad but ok lng. d nman aq my gus2 db???wahahhahhah!!!

10:03 PM; unforgotten.Y

4 people you will meet in life:

First is yourself

Second is the one you love most

Third is the one who loves you most

Fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with…

Sadly, in real life, these 3 people are usually not the same person.

The one you love most, doesn’t love you; the one who loves you most is never the one you love most; and the one you spend your life with is never the one you love or the one who loves you the most…

S/he is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time…

10:35 PM; unforgotten.Y

right now... i'm engaged in a war. hehe. nothin more to say. lost the mood.

8:04 PM; unforgotten.Y

fuck it off. well well... i'm quite uneasy about it. who won't anyway? after all these times. perhaps everything would be alright. yuh i guess it is. im done. next please? hehe. crushes are waaayyyy better.... there's doni, rafael, and my ULTIMATE CRUSH mr. valdez. haha!


ferdinand??? where are thou? its been quite a long time na. i suppose i won't be seeing you nymore since march ain't my month for saudi trips. awwww... i miz him. how stupid. damn lynskie! how can you miss someone you barely even know?? if there's such a thing as true love... there should be a true crush . haiiii!!!!! i mizyou tlga!

**snap... and wide awake!**

right now i should be studying socio but i just can't seem to find a way to force myself to study. waaahhhh!!! godblez me!

yuhyuh enuf of this. till nxt tym!!! mwah!

10:16 PM; unforgotten.Y

NHANAP Q NA REN XA!!!!!!!! tnx to sandy and mafe! ayih! kht na inde q pa ren mtnggap na ur one of d LGBT's.... GWAPO MO PA REN! CUTIE!! ayih!!!

iloveyou tlga!!! mwah!!! fantasies!!! what's my blog for huh?? hehe. pakxhiet tlga.. cryoso na 2.

yihee. sbi nga ni jenii knina nung pnchck q sknya... "why does he have to be a gay?? tell me!!!"

o db? dats lyk a big question. grbe kht buong araw ka pang tumayo sa harap q at mgsalita... d aq aalis. haaayyy!!! im xur sandy and mafe are with me.

see us soon! ciao! im gonna search for yah!!! rarrrrrr!!!!

11:08 PM; unforgotten.Y

for the longest times.. i'd been trying to be nice. hehe. wala lng. shinare q lng ang drama ko. so taglish to today. i would like to express anything that i would be typing later on in filipino coz it would be more fun. haha. kamusta nman yon db? hehe. so aun nga. b0om!

saturday... aun dpt ala tlga akong pasok. kaso my practice daw NICU for d NSTP chorva. eh d pumasok c lynskie ng 11. umalis aq sa bhay ng mga 10:20 na ata ang sobrng traffic pa. ang assembly time is 11 am sa rob faura wing. i came late.. 11:15 na. waahhh!! to my surprise, i'm even one of the first set to arrive. gravecious ah! pr0 un.. dhil sobrng gutom na q.. kumain muna kme sa KFC and redirected d rest of d latecomers there too. sori cla. tgal nila eh. i ordered a bento meal. lam niu un? ung my 2 pcs. tempura, rice, spag and a brownie. aun. so feel q lng mgbyad ng 97 pesos dun kht prng unreasonable. hehe. under deep monetary crisis pa nman ako ngaun. haha! bad lynskie!

nextnext... dumating na cla.. pde na umalis! yikes! c sugar loka loka! ngpatreAt ng hair tp0s iniligo din d nxt day. well its not her fault kc d nman nia alam.. aun janmik version. hehe. cute! den off to PACO PARK. yihee. la lng. di q nman alam un. so lakad lng daw sbi ni china. ok nman xa.

hapee... lakad. nanganganid na ung slippers q. i can sense it na. i won't use that na. bago pa q mabiktima ulet. hehe. so wat was next? 5 pesos entrance fee. tenk.. PAID. hehe. welcome! now.. sensing a wedding that afternoon coz they were like having an arrangement. IKAKASAL NA KO! waw! hehe. daw. ang maid of honor q c aliza dw. bridesmaids q cla..... teka teka.. cnong groom?? hehe. ckret. haha! ajajjajjajaja!!! watever!

punta sa isang place. cge perfect spot for NICU. aun. sarap matulog. grbe tlga. if only i cud lie down. pr0 nxt tym nga dalhin q xa dun. wooohhhh!! heehehehe. try lng nten. bkt inde. cge praktis lng tas alis na kme. ikot ikot.. umakyat sa isang staircase covered with moss. slippery xa kya be careful.. on our way back... toink! sugar slid down d stairs. oh no! she should have been more careful. ansket nun. awww... wawa nman c claudine. ngaun rest muna xa sa NICU babes. no more sugar. hehe. tp0s ikot p ren ng ikot ng ikot.

TRIVIA... dun unang nilibing c rizal tap0s hinukay at nilagay sa urn tp0s nilagay sa bahay ng nanay nia. pgktp0s nun nilagay na ung urn sa rizal monument sa luneta. yihee. lam niu b un?
at isa pa.. ang GOMBURZA ay doon din nkalibing. WLA NA. UN LNG.

nxt to that. aun tambay pa at kwntuhan. masaya! hehe. lakad ppntang taft. tp0s sumakay din for nothing. haha. c mariane prang cra.. sumakay nga kme d nman kme bumaba sa tama kya nglakad p ren. haaayyy!!! hehe. copytrade. fotox. walang katapusan na fotox. potek! dmi nung socio ah! eh ala aqng pera. Kya aun.. d pde. hehe. bbli sana q ng globe sim kaso d pa pde.. bumili muna q ng gift ke cha-chang kc birthday nia. aun..

on my way.. bili me ng gift. PUPIL was at grand. dami tao tuloy. amfness. tp0s uwi agad. traffic. samson road kc aq. dpat tlga sa 10th n lng. haynako lina ka! hehe. ok lng no rush nman. tp0s pguwi q.. aun.. ngaaus na cla.. we hav a dinner kc. bday nga ni chang. aun pnta kme ng chinatown sa banaue. hehe. sarap! isa pa ulet.

on our way home. the other car got hit. buti na lng d kids weren't there. haayyy! so because of some stuffs to finish.. pnta muna kme sa araneta sa bahay nila inten. d aq pmasok sa room nila. dun lng aq sa may terrace. tp0s bgla b nman naktulog din aq. haynako tlga. amfness. tp0s at around 1.. gnicng na q. nakunman! nacra tulog q. sana d na lng aq gnicng. uwi na dw kme. haaay!! pguwi knockdout agad. bad. bad. aun.

at ngaun buong araw.. alang sense ang mga ngwa q. watch UAAP cheerdance. 3rd UP. 2nd FEU and 1st UST. gleng. ktuwa. at ngaun ngbblog lng aq. nu b nman yan. hehe. ok lng yan.

>>>PROCRASTINATION STRIKES..... AGAIN!

til next time. ciao!

9:51 PM; unforgotten.Y

haynako cornyness! hehe. so conyo nga is my blog entry for today eh. wats ur care ba? i wasn't able t0 post my unforgettable, unbelievable, incoceivable, and everyble in this world. ahahhahhah!! waaahhh cornyness na tlga! so aun. we had our practice for himig kasi last night. At around six PM, d rain showered d entire vicinity of "i dunno til where". at first i didn't bother about it naman. i only considered letting the rain stop. little did i realize that as long as the rain continues, the taft ocean would be constructed again. waaahhhhh!!!!

my magandang kwento. ahahahha!!! lam niyo b na lumalabas sa outlet sa student's lounge ang water?? wahahahah!!! grabe tlga. not even a single sign of a spark.

10:31 PM; unforgotten.Y

this entry was supposed to be posted last tuesday but the pressure that the whole day had caused me made me realize that i could no longer sit here in front of the laptop and spend time surfing the net and blogging.

so, how did the day go? first, i went to school early of course since it's a socio day. it's a tuesday with recio! haha! i believe you are familiar with tuesdays with morrie. hihi! i actually had in mind not to transfer in front since i haven't even finished half of the math coverage for the deps. damn our conyo teacher! haha! bad lynskie!
do you know dat i had never ever felt this way? my self-esteem seemed dropped to the floor. i was texting with jen on my way to school and i told her about it. weeha. i have a gut feeling i won't be able to answer much on the deps. ayih! i felt like crying n tlga!

so aun. i even ended up listening to mam recio agen and recording some portions of her discussion. see how desperate i can be? ahahhahah!!! well, all of us are probably desperate to pass N1. with two portions for prof. recio... was that a CURSE? damness! wahhahah! whatta word!

now... several hours to finish reviewing. huhu. i thought we would have our presentation for socsci so i had no choice but to attend. to my surprise, we were only asked to go to the little theater and listen sa CHORVA CHATS. i considered not attending it anymore after signing the attendance BUT IM GLAD I DIDN'T PURSUE WITH THAT.

GRABE ANG CUTIE AT XUPER GWAPO NUNG VAKLUSH NA UN! xhiet! sna lalaki n lng xa. at bgla dw aqng ngtagalog. naexcite lng aq mgkwn2. HAAAYYYY!!! im happy! i was inspired with suck a look. haha. an eloquent speaker. stands for his side. d best tlga! one thing though.... when he suddenly showed a big grin on his face, it resembled someone else's. someone i do not intend to remember and even think of at that very moment. i didn't want to deal with such stuffs even for just a day because of my exams. i had been "undisturbed" for quite a while and i thought it would be for real. how dare me believe that when i know that communication will always be a part of it. i'm happy though! i succeeded in the "no-text" deal. yihee!!!!

welwel... back to the topic. i only finished his portion then went straight home. i left my calcu. but it was a good thing since for only 50 pesos, i saved 200+ for a new calcu and money for food which is like 100 pesos. haha! money wise. i was able to have my lunch and merienda pa! hihi! went back to school with a little confidence na coz i finished d topics. nyahahhaha!!! very good lynskie! UR SUCH A CRAMMER! CERTIFIED CRAMMER!!!

d deps was fyn. it was hard. and as d line of kenny goes "i did my best but i guess my best wasn't good enough...." hehe. it made me laugh real hard. listen to him. hehe. went home at around 9:30 and bought my siomai! yihee!!!

9:37 PM; unforgotten.Y

so i only had my philo exam today. JPaul wasn't able to meet us due to some whatevers. niweiz, i ain't in the mood right now. not even close to being one. philo final exam was alright. juz dunno wats gonna happen though. hmmm....

aftrwards, we ate at burger king. i felt my tummy crunching the lining of my stomach. hehe. need to eat. so the "no fast food" deal is not being observed again. damn us. stupid. hehe. then i had the math reviewers photocopied and went straight home. on my way home, i noticed the sky turn yellow orange... *reminiscing... it seems as if a sandstorm is coming* hehe. i miss saudi. super. i miz my room, our house. d computer. d tv channels. my sister and brother and my parents. i even miz d vacuum cleaner right now. the rags for wiping out the "potato-field" dusts on the shelves. miz myself nagging. miz school. miz d teachers. miz d demands. miz d canteen. miz d xp0 room. miz d bathroom. miz d campus itself - d aftrnoon habit of walking around and around for several times. miz d laughs. miz d cries. d corny jokes dat i laugh at. miz d heartaches he caused me. miz pooh stuffs. miz my things. miz d tapsilog/tosilog. miz d chubby. miz d turon. miz d stage. miz d prom. miz my crying speeches. miz d contests. miz my trophies. my medals. my plaque. miz d skul bus. miz d mcdonald's trips. miz d varsity games. miz ferdinand valdez. miz d cheers. miz my bzfrnds. miz my frnds. but to keep it short... i juz wanna turn back and check out what's still waiting for me back there. hmm...

several minutes ago, i came across the page of my hunnie iji. i miz her so much. more than anyone could imagine. however, while looking at her pictures with her new friends... i felt something deep down there - jealousy and insecurity. i was once so confident that she's the only bestfriend i could have who's close to being a sister together with jen. they were like the longest closest friends i've got. with the trips and everything. sisters. and even soulmates. hmmm... now, will i still be the bestfriend she once knew? will i still be jenii's meng? will we still be together?

i have friends of my own. but none like them yet. i mean, maybe in time. but ryt now? i dunno. perhaps it would be a great thing. but i can't just turn back like that. i ain't saying that they like... turned away. its juz dat d feeling is there. u know wat i mean. living in different worlds. less talks that will soon turn into no talks at all. waaahhhhh!!!!

selfish it may seem but if i could only stop d world ryt now and build a great wall of china around with the people i need in the middle.. i won't hesitate to do so. if only i could demand that they find no one else but us.. i would do so. but life juz makes me realize that these are impossible. and that doing so won't make any sense at all. i don't wanna lose them. argh! i should be studying ryt now. but i juz cnt help but grieve this all out. i believe the time i'd been fearing has come... in time... this would be more complicated than it is now... acceptance? that's d least i can do.

... the rain now poured down so badly. gotta find a way to reach home as soon as i could. math exams tom. amfness.

9:06 PM; unforgotten.Y

yuhyuh. how dare me get online this early anyway? it's just because my sister asked me to turn this on and *daMn* i'm stuck again. help!!!! i need to finish my PHILO. hehe. i'm tired. wait wait. know what? of all final exams, this i didn't worry much. why? don't ask me. flunk? who knows. haha!

i swear i'm not gonna sleep late anymore. i slept at around 1 am. i was supposed to wake up at 5 but i just can't seem to force myself to wake up. the magnetic attraction between the bed and i was soooooo strong. *toink!* stupid lynskie.

i nEed to taLk to mY ***, i just wanNa maKe sure this is now REAL. perhaps the ABSence juz makes me think this way. no no. this is for real now. haha. fairytaLes? wahahhahahha!!!

so now what? i dunno. does this make any sense? my thoughts we're not even close to being organized. nyahahhahah... bear with it. juz answered this survey....

anong isasagot mo kapag may nagsabi sayo ng...
1. sino crush mo??"* o tapos?
2. "ngayon ko lang na-realize..mahal pala kita"* wow nman. try mo sa iba ha. bka effective.
3. "iwanan mo na sya. mas magiging masaya kasa piling ko."* tlga lng huh?
4. "smile ka nga..cute mo kapag naka smile e.."* datz natural.. kht nman inde eh.
5. "gawin mo naman yung homework ko sa math"* tang*** mo.
6. "bakit ba palagi ka na lang ganyan?"* eh bkt naaano ka?
7. "i am so blessed to have someone like you"* blushing... chockchockcohkhkhkkh
8. "why does monday come before tuesday?"* ask urself.
9. "may ticket ako sa concert ng linkin park,wanna watch?"* cge cge. hehe.

10. "isa ka sa mga pinakaspecial na tao sa buhayko..alam mo ba yun?"* ava dpt lng. haha

11. "nahuhulog na ata ako sayo.."* ingat ka.
12. "i can't smile without you.."* try nga nten...
13. "wala lang"* o ano?

14. "ano cell number mo?"* txt tau? id love dat
15. "can i have this dance?"* **(this sounds familiar) haha! xurest!
16. "pwede ba manligaw?"* bwahahahhahha!!!
17. "mahal ko pa din sya hangang ngayon.."* eh d mahalin mo.
18. "kelan mo ba ako sasagutin?"*nsgot q na nga lahat eh. hehe.

7:13 AM; unforgotten.Y

sbi q nga mg-aaral na q. sori ah! trip q mgblog eh. isa n lng. hehe. ala lng. i pr0mised myself that i ain't gonna write in filipino here. damn! per0 kc i juz think it would be better this way. tag-lish. wahaha! or supposed to say eng-log. hehe. wokei. im stupid. yah i know. with all these stuffs around me. damn philo. hehe. but infairness, i'm enjoying philosophical analysis as a pocketbook. haha. ewan q nga b. pra kasing tuwing may exam... gngwa q n lng pocketbooks ung mga libro o kya pti ung mga articles. well thanks to that coz i can read more now! wahahaah! sucks!

nythin else to say?

ah. yah. got one.

my m0m juz caLLed up. dats definiteLy fr0m riyadh. hehe. askin bout h0w im doin and stuffs lyk dat. my grades? hmmm... UP kills me.. little by little. and i guess if euthanasia is an option, i'd rather have it.

serious na. so un. dunno wat to tell her. well im stil alright. as long as i keep it on the track hehe. hope i still get to be on the 2010 batch. **fingers crossed so badly** hehe. math deps on tuesday. damn. shitty math prof. we're not done. perhaps i could rate a failing grade for d nxt deps? no doubt. only a miracle could save me...
(smallville's soundtrack... singing somebody save me....) stops. hehe.

well then.. til here. til nxt tym. gotta finish lotsa readings. bbye.

2:52 PM; unforgotten.Y

wen i woke up a while ago, something came into my mind. for the past few months, saying im over it won't really make any sense coz i end up eating up my words back. perhaps.. even swallow it back. but now... ryt now... IM HAPPY! happy coz i know im done. done with it. not affected at all. no missing. no loving. purely friendship. if u know who he is... party with me!

i know this seems absurd coz he hasn't even done anything disgusting to me.. its juz dat d long wait made me suffer lyk hell. mind you.. not waiting 4 him to be mine but waiting 4 d feeling to fade. people come and go, with me still stuck to him. geesshhhh!!! unfair it seems but nothin i could do. BUT ITS FINALLY OVER!!!!! thanks though! u know who u are.

still hoping this is now FOR REAL... no thinking twice nymore.

2:31 PM; unforgotten.Y